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Saturday, January 31, 2009 @23:28
I noticed I've been saying 'Ridiculous' alot. Hence, a new word created :
'RIDICULOSITY'
Today I went to Boat Quay with Goo. A short time but it was very memorable for me. Maybe it's because I didn't go out with her for a long time. We took polaraids (is this how you spell it?) and it took so long for us to take the first shot luh!
HAHA I'll never forget our screams when we sat on the grass. Mine sounded like some screeching cat when someone stepped on their tail! I laughed my ass off at that. And then there was the group of students doing some 'dunking' thing, and Goo was like whispering 'Ally run, run!' and it was so effing funny when they still followed us. Goo said to act like tourists if they really approached us. EXAMPLE:
Student: Excuse me, can you do this survey for us?
Me: ??? 우리는 이해하지 않는다... *snigger*
*walks away*
I was already practicing my made up lines but too bad they didn't manage to approach us.
I love this shot. Vintage looking ^^
This one's so dark. You should have climbed the tree, Goo!
My IC, finally.
I'm going shopping with Oliver tomorrow. I can't believe I'm doing this.
I wanna go to London one day. Recently, I've been strangely attracted to American music. Perhaps I've finally broken away from my shell. I used to cringe away from music that wasn't korean or DBSK related.. Well now I've changed. It feels nice for a change; makes me feel different. I really wanna visit London and America. In fact, I was I was American. Sigh.
Thursday, January 29, 2009 @20:19
OLIVER TAN HSIEN YANG, 2T1.
All of you should remember that name and that class because he calls the sec 4s 'dogs' and isn't scared of them. He frequently insults sec 4s, and since he think the sec 4s are lame dogs and isn't scared of offending them at all, I EXTREMELY ENCOURAGE ALL TO DO THAT. SCARE HIM.
Do anything; stare, shout, push him.. whatever is good. He needs to know who's the dog. I really hate it when people like him do this kind of thing; who the hell is he to insult his seniors?
You know what I wanna do to him?
I want a scene where all the upper secs sound him in front of everyone. People like Nizham should go and REALLY REALLY TALK TO HIM. All the gang should go and scare him. THEN HE'LL KNOW HOW TO SHUT HIS ASS UP!
He needs to know what the hell respect means.
BULLSHIT RIGHT, OLIVER?!
Just wait until all the upper secs go find you. I swear I will slap you soon. Fucker.
I know he's my brother. I don't care, he needs to realise he can't just insult his seniors and get away scot free. Calling us DOGS?! You need a fucking tight slap on your face.
@15:48
I got my IC today =D
I'm going to go cycling later. All the way to East Coast and further. The plan went okay-y today. Could have done without the non liquid ones. Gotta get used to it.
Disgusted whenever I look into the mirror.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009 @20:07
Today was fine. I missed my friends in school. Went swimming just now; it was okay. I'm quite tired now. Looking forward to the 2nd month so that I can go out with Goo! I hope she hasn't forgotten what we planned to do every month. GOO, I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO IT.
Contradicting behaviour AGAIN. Don't you dare escape this time.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009 @14:51
CNY is such a bore. For me at least.
Maybe it's just me. Or maybe it's just the recession this year. Either way, I noticed a lack of things this year during CNY. I don't even feel the joy or the exitement. I don't feel anything different.
I dreamt I was pregnant, and I was about to give birth. Oh god.. I don't remember much of it but I remember being afraid. Afraid of the pain of giving birth. And the small spasm of pain in between. Really scary.
I don't know if it's the book that's influencing me, but I feel more and more like Bella. Minus Edward of course. What I mean is the way I speak.. The way I handle things nowadays, it changed. And I've been a klutz recently too. I feel like I'm declining inwards.. I think I've changed recently. Please do not give me crap such as saying that I'm trying to be like Bella cos I want an Edward to climb through my window.
Since when did I start typing like this? Did anyone even noticed?
*snorts*
I guess I don't care now. I've numbed myself to all.
@03:23
I'm looking for Twilight merchandises. Especially Team Edward tshirts =D Well actually, Team Jacob's good too.
Please contact me if you've got news =D
'You are my life now.'
Monday, January 26, 2009 @23:44
Here I am, sitting pathetically alone. Again.
There is something, I need to get straight right now. This has been going on for far too long. When was it you decided to change girl? Or should I say, when was it you said you would change BACK? That's right. The end of 2007. Didn't you say 'I'll go return back to how I was, I promise'? How many years has it been already, do you think you've changed? Have you kept your promise? No. In fact, you got worse. Much much worser.
Don't forget, that promise wasn't for anyone else, but YOURSELF. You break that promise, it's yourself you let down. No one else is going to feel that regret, that guilt, BUT YOURSELF.
Is this what you want, then? Why be like this when you could change back? Wasn't life back then so much better? Didn't everything go well for you? You felt so good and awesome back then I might add. In fact, THAT PERIOD OF TIME WAS YOUR GOLDEN PERIOD. You adhered to the rules, you changed yourself totally, and it was so awesome. Why don't you want to be like that again? Do you feel good now?
Do not trust the mirrors; they're but a lie. LOOK AT THE MORE EVIDENT MEDIA.
If you changed, you would look even greater girl. Coupled with the skills you know now and the things of the past, you could REALLY DO IT. Why won't you? Girl, this has got to stop. Chance after chance, day after day, MONTHS HAVE PAST, and where the hell is the result?
You might have been trying to use a new method, but the months proved it, IT DOESN'T WORK. LOOK AT IT! Look at what it has done to you. The phyical things are not important, it's the MIND thats the thing. Get your mindset settled, and the rest are a breeze. Perhaps this is a natural gift for yourself, but your mind is so very powerful. More powerful then intended, I might add. Sometimes, its astounding, how you can change everything simply by the use of a small thought. It's not about the thought, its about how you think it. The extend of the thinking, and the rationality of it. Apply this gift on things you want to achieve, and you got it.
See? What I can't understand is, why aren't you using this 'gift'. Why aren't you using this method? It works, it proved itself before. WHY, then? Is it so hard to leave this world, and go into the other? What is it, about this world that's so appealing? You don't even seem to enjoy this; all the relentless regrets and self guilt.
Nothing's more reproachable than self guilt. Especially for YOU. This is the way your mind works, consciously or not. You can make the worst pain in the world seem like a breeze, but you can also overreact TREMENDOUSLY for something insignificant. It all burns down to whether you know how to manupilate and make use, take advantage of your little talent. It might be small and insignificant to others, but with you, it can work wonders.
It just boils down to whether you WANT to do it. If you want it, all doors of possibilities will be opened. Hundreds, thousands of methods you can slowly deliberate over.
Is there a price? Yes.
Your friends, your feelings, and if you're not careful enough, your sanity. The easiest thing you could lose are your FRIENDS, because they're the first ones to be affected by your little gift. Family can't leave you, but your friends can.
Think it over girl. The motions of it aren't very major, but the consequances, the results you get will go wonders.
Treasure this, it's not something everyone has.
My phone hasn't rung in 3 days, I'm feeling hopelessly stupid.
Finally, it's time to wash my hair.
@15:34
These last few days have been ridiculously hot. I absolutely HATE the hot weather. If there was one other thing which placed me in PMS mode other than the monthy thing, it would be being stuck in a day with the blazing sun.
I wished I wasn't born in Singapore. I'm having a throbbing headache, thanks to the SUN. Seriously, the sweltering heat is driving me crazy. I can't even look out at my window for a minute; the sunlight is too strong and too glaring. Forks seem like a nice place to live. Small, cooling, and there's not much sun.
Lately I've been thinking alot, creating more theories to humor myself. Of course, these theories normally popped out randomly. And by the time I think about them again, I can't seem to remember how I got these theories.
I've never been a occasions type of person. For instance, I don't see why I should be all excited and cheerful to be celebrating my own birthday, or to be trapped in festives like CNY where it's full of people. Full of headache inducing unnecessary noise. Maybe this part of my personality explains why I'm not much of a people person. I didn't like mixing around with loud crowds; I hardly fit in there. Of course, sometimes it gets unbearably lonely. These kind of times allows my imagination to run wild. Sometimes, I think it's a good thing, but it depends if I can control it. If I can't control the consequences of my wild imagination, it would just imprint judgemental opinions on people. On my friends. It's hard sometimes, and it bothers me. Realising the truth, and creating a 'truth'.
I noticed over these 3 days that I was changing. I'm definately changing. I don't know in what sense or way, but I don't seem to think the same way as before. For me, thinking if a very important aspect of myself. What I think creates what I am. That's why I have to be careful of my thoughts and my perspectives. Some things shouldn't be thought about, because I know that it would change things. Well, for me at least. Change how I looked at it, how I feel about it, and sometimes even trigger a reaction for it. I might be blowing up over something that happened 6 months ago. Goo should know about this.
I wonder, is it just me, or is everyone else like this? I think, and the thoughts create my perspective, my feelings, and my reactions. It's common for people to think, but is it normal, or even good to let such personal thoughts affect reality? Mixing virtual with reality. Maybe, I'd been thinking too much. Perhaps, life is that simple, after all. Not like how I imagined.
Maybe, I would be better off if I changed.
Sunday, January 25, 2009 @13:28
WATCH THE HOTNESS OF TAYLORRRRRR =D
Sleep was so unfitful. 1 of the worst sleep I've ever had. Dreamless, hot, restless.. I woke up feeling more tired. Feeling like something was incomplete.. like something wasn't there for me as it always had been.
I have to start. Seriously. Start with plan A!
I'ma gonna slack today. Sing. Sleep.
Dedicated to.. Whoever.
Saturday, January 24, 2009 @22:25
Okay, don't laugh at this. Took me alot of courage.
I'm gonna post it on soompi!
@20:28
EVIDENCE: WHY TAYLOR IS SO SMOKING HOT
Reasons :
1. He's young. Still a teen!
2. Has a boyish face
3. Witty and .. very open, I guess.
4. He's just my type lah.
Turn's out my mum's bdae is on MONDAY, not tmr. Anyone wanna study tmr? I got 2 tests on next week.
I wanna ask Edward this. Since he can read people's minds, can he read animals' minds too? Do they think? What do they think about? Or is it like.. empty?
CURRENT STATE: Shit, my relatives paid an unannouced visit and it caught me off guard! I'm like, without proper clothes and NOT WEARING MAKE UP NOWWWW !! Even my hair is still wet! (I just bathed) OH LORD!
Goodbye. I'll be blogging again in 5 mins.
@19:31
Sorry Navin, for being unable to attend ur gf's surprise party >.<
I'm super tired now, dance was so horrible! I can't remember the steps, I haven't been focusing, shit! Sigh, I could have done so much better. Damn!
Came back to a dinnerless home. I thought mum cooked something! If I knew, I WOULD have gotten that burger I wanted. Grr.
What shall I do later? Right, sing and read. I don't care if you're calling me obsessed, the Twilight series HAS improved my english, so there!
And I'm washing my hands off him, wasting my time and brain cells only. He's not worth the time and feelings =.=
Sing, sing, sing! =D
P.S Jaejoong's bdae is tomorrow! So is my mum's! =D
Friday, January 23, 2009 @23:56
Razi, can you pick up the damn phone and answer my calls? Or at least call me back? I need to talk to you about something. The thing does not involve me, but it involves a good friend of yours and you too, to a certain extent. It's nothing about me, so I don't want to feel so fucking desperate and stupid by leaving you 20 smses and miss calls which you'll ignore. But at the same time, I promised him that everything will be OKAY, and things can't be okay if I can't contact you! So, help me out abit here alright? He's your friend too, so CONTACT ME SOON!
Grr.
@23:18
In the movie, Edward was in, Jacob was out.
In reality, Taylor is SO IN, Robert is out.
I would SO take Taylor anytime. He's a freaking teenager, and he's so funny and hot! To me, what's appealing is definately his boyish charm. And his deep eyes. Sigh~~
Today no one smsed or called me. Sigh, I'm super sad. Reminded me of how I used to be. Maybe, this is how I still am? Confusing, confusing, confusing. Maybe I've been lying to myself the whole time, maybe I'm not how I think I am. Should I be bothered with this? Again? Is being bothered to whole mistake?
Anyway, I realised one thing today. I can keep practicing singing, but it's not going to get better cos I'm lacking emotions. I need to start learning to lyrics and understanding them, if not it's no use. Come on girl!!!
@09:23
Rules must be followed:Each blogger must post this rules.Each blogger must start with ten random facts about themselves.Bloggers that are tagged need to write about their own blog, ten things and post this rules.Don't forget to leave them comments telling them they have been tagged and are to read your blog.
10 Random Facts about me.
1. I downloaded intrumentals last night, and spent the night practicing
2. I'm having my reunion dinner later
3. I'm in Lit class now
4. I dreamt of Edward last night
5. I've fantasized about Jacob alot (8 packs, baby!)
6. MY HAIR CAN'T STAY STRAIGHT EVEN AFTER STRAIGHTENING!
7. I'm practicing to walk without making any sound
8. It's hard for me to blush
9. I. CRAVE. FOR. MILO. NOW.
10. I'm scared for O levels
1. Who's the person that tagged you?
ZAMMY!!
2. Relationship between you and him?
My loving brother whom I trust 3. Three impressions of him/her
Wise(?), short and cute, sexy
4. If he becomes your enemy, you will?
Forget him
5. What will you say to the person you like very much?
I'm sorry >.<
6. Characteristic I like about myself?
Constantly challenging myself
7. Characteristic I hate about myself?
It's hard for me to have self control
8. For the person whom you hate, you say?
Let's start afresh. Hating you gave me pimples and wrinkles.
9. What do people feel about you?
They think I'm cold and icy. 10. Your crush?
I don't even know his name. 11. Pass this to 10 people:
14. What colour does 9 like?
Blue?
15. Say something about 8?
She's 25 years old! I think.
16. Who is 2?
A health freak.
17. Talk about 3.
Has very sexy eyes, charismatic, and was super fat in the past. Maybe he's still flabby o.o
18. Who is 10's best friend?
I don't know..?
19. Who's the sexiest among all 10?
Junsu and Edward
20. What colour does 4 like?
Maybe.. Green?
21. Is 4 single?
Yes, she don't intend to fall in love yet. She has a very profund and unique concept of love.
22. Your relationship with 1.
My best sister. She's always there for me, someone I can definately turn to in time of need. I love her <3
23. Are 5 & 6 best friends?
Nope, they don't know each other. 24. 9's surname?
I don't know..
25. 7's nickname?
Honey
26. Say something to 8.
You're so funny! And you look so young!
27. Say something to help 9.
More precision and energy~ Always take each routine as if you're already performing on the stage. 28. Who do I admire?
BoA and.. Shinhwa. Goo also.
29. Where does 1 live?
Ang Mo Kio
0. 10 of them know who you like?
They used to
2. 10's spouse?
Mamat =DDDDD
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUU <3
Thursday, January 22, 2009 @20:44
Happy 222th day Hirouka dears<3 I love you more than Kim Junsu, I love you more than Edward Cullen. I love you all as always, and my love will never change.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009 @20:37
Watch it, my ideal bf there!
My ideal boyfriend, the guy in the white jacket, CHOI SEUNGHYUN. Yeah, he's so hot when he fights! OMG imagine him fighting for ME <3 *melts*
Yes Lijie, he is THE Seunghyun =D
Tuesday, January 20, 2009 @21:06
P.S
I'm gonna pack rice tomorrow with some tamago thingy, something which Sho apparently likes. It tastes weird for me, at least Sho can finish it up! No need to waste by throwing =D
AND SHO, CAN YOU PLEASE STOP TRYING TO MURDER ME?
Shoichi is one hella dangerous arsonist. Tsk tsk =DD
Omg, if the fire REALLY caught onto my skirt.. *shivers*
Monday, January 19, 2009 @23:56
Today was damn hot.
I get really fustrated and cold (not literally) during those extra hot days. I'm so sorry Sinthu, for being so.. un welcoming every few minutes during Maths tutorial. And to top everything off, I had a bad hair day, plus bad hair!
Ooh, awesome *rolls eyes*
My hair sucks. I think I spent at least an hour looking in the mirror at my hair. I hate it especially when I know that I'm usually not those type of girls, but the hair turned me into one of those kind of girls.
I did my hair at home again. This time, I calmed myself down before cutting. Ensure you are NOT stressed when you cut your own freaking hair. Then I took almost an hour to cut my hair. I used more effort and care. Finally, it looks good and normal again. BOO YEAHHH!!!
I'm going to start running at least 3 or 4 rounds around the park everyday. The main point of this is not to lose weight, but to get used to running. After getting used to it, I'll like it, and that's where to weight loss is going to come in.
I'd better do it. And go get a referral letter from the polyclinic asap.
Art, here I come baby!
@23:56
OMG.
Remember Jacob Black? Oh my god Taylor gained 20 pounds of muscle for his role in New Moon! There's a video somewhere in Youtube. HE'S LOOKING HOT, REALLY REALLY REALLY HOT.
That face.. The 8 packs.. The cute grin.. The smouldering eyes... gahhh
Move over, Edward.
Bella, you're one lucky bitch.
@22:33
Pictures are up!
Okay, firstly, OMG. Fustrated by my hair, I cut it 1 hour ago. Yes Goo, I cut it after reaching home before taking a bathe. Shit man. Okay luh, I don't totally regret, since my fringe did look better after cutting it. But I did something idiotic, which is to cut the hair at the sides which hanged down. Now, IT'S FREAKING SHORT!
God, I'm not going kill myself by putting myself through all this regret.
Hair will grow back.
Whatever.
UGH!
Saturday, January 17, 2009 @00:32
Today was tiring.
I haven't done my work, and maths test is tomorrow. It's just the starting of the year, how am I going to cope? Will things automatically turn out fine? Will I be able to adapt to the stress as the weeks go by?
Am I prepared for it?
I'm going to try to be as 'kai lang' (cheerful) as Shen Caijing in Princess Hours.
Friday, January 16, 2009 @23:31
This sucks. Time to endure, forget.
Thursday, January 15, 2009 @20:28
I wanna cut my hair like Alice. 2nd from the left.
Should I.. ?
Short and spunky. Yum.
@20:11
Woohoo. Today was okay.
I'm proud that I paid attention in class today. My mind was filled with Edward, but I managed to squeeze in my art and maths in.
But I was also quite pissed today. People who are involved, should know why. Angry gossips.
To that someone. We're doing all this for you. We don't want you to get hurt; not when it is being done on purpose. Not when it can be avoidable. There are things you might not know now, but it will be painful to find out some time later. It's not right for you to be treated this way, I can't stand to see it. You're precious to us, we're going to protect you. Okay protect sounds overboard, but we're going to make this easier for you in the future. You might not see it now.. but trust us, please.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009 @20:45
I ditched school today.
Okay, normally I would have said 'I didn't go to school today', but Edward and Bella both said that line in Eclipse.
I did not ditch school for the sole purpose of reading Eclipse luh. I had to get some medicine for my skin before I start turning into something else -.-
But I DID finish Eclipse today.
I even comtemplated about going for Physics tutorial. I should not be slacking, I should not be slacking, I should NOT be SLACKING.
I'm gonna do well for Danceworks. I just can't seem to get the charisma part right. How the heck to I exude charisma? It's so complicated.. I know I'm dancing, performing, but at the same time it's not about smiling. At the same time, it's wrong to not smile, because I'd look like a robot. How do I show charisma by not smiling and not keeping a straight face? If it's not smiling.. maybe I should frown? Haha. Danceworks isn't the type of dance where you're all cute and smiley and all. It's more of.. Fierce, strong. It definately fits into the Eat You Up genre. I've been trying to study that, actually. I've been studying how Junsu and BoA dances. I think... its the confidence. And the feel.
Way to go, Allison. As if all these were going to come up for O levels.
La La La's dance class starts this Saturday too. I'm looking forward to the weekends, especially the volunteer work. I'm going to cut my fringe soon, I've been dying to meet Goo again. I miss the gossiping! Maybe this Saturday, before dance =D
Tuesday, January 13, 2009 @18:42
Oh my god. OH MY GOD.
I totally forgot about History homework! The mindmap and SBQ questions. Damn, if I didn't read Carel's blog, I would have FORGOTTEN about it. Fuck, this means I can't spend time with Edward. Sigh. And to think I wanted to sleep!
Edward, wait for me baby. I'll be with you as soon as I finish my mortal homework.
DAMN, STILL GOT ART!!
Just kill me already, seriously. Why don't you just bite me now, Edward? There's no better time to do it. Haha =D
Monday, January 12, 2009 @21:41
So what did I eat today? Breakfast, cereal. Recess, sandwich. Afternoon, fruit. Dinner, 1/4 katsu don.
Perfect. I could do without the rice tho.
Today was scary. It was a damn good wake up call for me. I'm gonna go study and concentrate on my maths and art.
The audition was simple. Just took a few shots, thats all. Stress for nothing sia! I thought will have like, judges and all that crap. In the end, just take pictures, posing with a camera only. Sigh. The photographer was damn cute tho. He reminds me of Sho!
EDIT/
What. The Fuck.
Why is everybody NOT replying my smses today? Bloody hell, not even on MSN! Think what, I sms you all without reason uh? What, I'm not good enough? I hope you die.
P.S I'm not referring to any bloody ass sucker in particular.
P.S.S I'm going to be fiery, watch out.
Sunday, January 11, 2009 @21:02
I finally finished New Moon. Amazing.
Alright, fine. I admit, I'm pretty much obsessed with Edward Cullen now. If you're unlucky, you might even start hearing me speak like them. I can't wait to read Eclipse, but I know it's affecting my studies. Time to go back to reality baby.
I haven't had a good night's sleep in a loooooong time.
Tomorrow's result day. All the best, loves.
Zhen Hong, if you damage the book, I'm so gonna damage your organs. =D
I'm can to do this.. abit more, perservere, please.
Saturday, January 10, 2009 @12:42
CCA open house was tiring. Really tiring. I don't know how I got through it. Curling into a ball during breaks, but full of excitement on stage. Split personality uh! Sigh, I haven't been sleeping well recently. Thank god, I lost 2 kg! Woah, all of a sudden.
I guess the Twilght/New Moon thing has caught up to me. I can't wait for the movie.
I can't even seem to swallow rice nowadays, or finish a bubble tea. So darn sweet, I'm starting to hate it.
Time to think of what to get Dad today. Damn, I didn't even know today was his birthday!
I'm gonna get through this period. Once is just not enough, eh?
@12:28
Let's both just take our time, I'm sure time will bring us back to how we were months ago. You're right about the exhaustion and tension lately. School has been hard on me since day 1. I guess, I haven't gotten used to the hectic schedule. I'm sure things will turn out great for us in a few months time. Meanwhile, let's just try to adapt to our new environments. Art is killing me, before it even started. I can see alot of pain coming my way. Thanks for your encouragement. I'll live, I think. Results are out soon. No matter what happens on Monday, do not feel despair. Instead, look forward to a new chance to start in a new place. And as always, we'll always be here for you.
Written exclusively for Razi. And yes, I was shocked. But it doesn't matter. I'm proud of it. -Ally-
Friday, January 9, 2009 @20:51
It took me a minute or two to absorb the meaning behind your post.
I understand. It's tiring to keep argueing and to keep trying. It might even be pointless. If you think that things should be this way, then let's have it this way. I agree that things would be easier for both of us this way too.
But, let's still mantain a 'hi' 'bye' basis alright? For the sake of the family at least. There shouldn't be awkwardness within the beloved family. I'm sure a 'hi' and 'bye' won't be too confusing for me ^^
I'll still be in the hall on Monday. Like always, Reverandom will be behind all of you. We'll be there to jump for joy(or cry) with you guys.
EDITED-
1 more thing. Was it hurtful or offending when I said that you confused me alot and made things complicated? I'm really sorry if I did, I didn't mean to.
**************
Wow. New Moon is just so depressing. Edward leaves Bella. What's the use of reading if Edward's gonna be missing for like, 5-8 chapters?! I cried at the goodbye scene. Oh god, EDWARD!
School is definately stressing me out. Art especially. I didn't expect things to be so hard and so fast. I'M GONNA PRESS FORWARD!
Reverandom MOVIE MARATHON this Sunday @ Navin house, after religious classes for the Malays. Let's all attend, the Reverandom sec 4ers NEED to destress =D
I love you guys. Life wouldn't be as awesome without you people <3 Tomorrow, dance my heart out!
Thursday, January 8, 2009 @20:45
It's the first time I ever confronted a problem, without running away from it.
It's the first time I took initiative to say hi, when I could have just walked away, pretending not to see you there, like always.
Determined to change myself, I tried. For the first time in my life. And yet, I recieved a respone I never wanted. But I'm not going to give up. I'm going to try again, cos I deeply treasure this friendship.
Please, can we talk?
Wednesday, January 7, 2009 @21:32
Things don't have to be this way.
Yes, you confuse me. And when you try to explain, I say that it's okay, nevermind. All you have to do is to just forget it, when I don't press for an explanation, it shows that I don't see the need for it. That's all. It doesn't mean I'm pissed off.
It's ME with the tiny brain, not YOU. There's no need to feel as a burden. And if anyone should feel this way, it's me, for being slow and confused, not you. You should know that it's not you with the problem when out of the family, it's only 1 person that's confused with your words.
When I'm confused, just let it be. If it's something I feel that I should be clear about, I will press you for an answer myself..
Do you still feel the need to do what you were thinking of? I wouldn't want you to do that, honestly.
*************
SNSD's Gee is out! So now, you'll know why I keep saying Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby! =D
An update for Reverandoms. The Japanese students from Gokase wants homestay, who wanna volunteer? I'M DEFINATELY UP FOR IT <3
I read on Berwin's blog that he wanna go to America to study. After thinking about it, maybe I should go to Korea to study too. It seems like a nice idea <3
Thanks my lovely Reverandoms in school for ALWAYS brightening my day. Always.
I just thought about this, who would be who if we were all CULLENS instead of Reverandoms?
I wanna be Alice.
Gahh, EDWARD <3
@15:51
GOD, WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?!
How dare you mention Amanda. Of all people, SHE is the one that's the LEAST involved in this.
@14:26
Today was a good day. Minus my shirt.
O levels are definately scary. For the graduated people, results are out next week. I'm feeling the nervousness already. We'll be seeing our graduated Reverandoms next Thursday, and whatever happens, we'll be there for them. Right Goo!
I got through Mr Shah's audition (which was FREAKY) and I passed! Hello Danceworks, bye missing dance classes! I got a feeling its going to be tough this year. Congrats Umairah, I'm super happy and glad for you!!!!
I should have said 'I'm sorry, I didn't know it was too thick.' Instead of 'Okay lor.'
Think before saying, and say without feeling.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009 @19:36
Today was bad I guess. Forgot to bring powder and moisturizer.
I can live without powder luh, but not moisturizer. Throw me on a island with either Junsu or a bottle of lotion, and I'll choose lotion. Worse, my skin was so freaking dry and started peeling already! Omg I think I was licking my lips every 1.5 mins. Thats SO NOT GOOD.
Thanks to Furqaan who attempted to brighten my day. Okay, maybe he didn't but he's always funny and random luh. A true Reverandom right there! Reading Twilight secretly under my table helped too. The book is so awesome. GAHHHH~~~
I'm going to start going to school with my hair down. Not tomorrow tho, THERE'S ART! Looking forward to Thursday <3 tp ="DD
Amanda, lunch yesterday was awesome.
Reverandom AllyGoo's Funniest Scenes :
*waiter brings food* Goo: Hi.. ~~
'Can I have the ebi yaki?' Goo: 'I want potatp.'
'Er.. Can I have the.. fried prawn sushi?' Waiter: *confused*
Auntie: 'You want 2 more ice cream is it? Very nice right?'
Okay got alot more but I don't know how to describe. Goo, must do this every month! Yesterday was really damn funny!
I made a resolution. I'm going to try to be as kai lang as CaiJing in Princess Hours. Why be so crappy when you're already going through a crappy time? Might as well make it less crappier by being optimistic.
Maybe, I was just being sensitive on the whole Edward thing. I don't mean to hurt anyone. No more arguements.
Monday, January 5, 2009 @19:44
Walao. 1 reason I dislike being misunderstood is the bitter feelings it leaves behind for me. Feelings like being cheap, thick-skinned and shameless, for instance.
I'M NOT THAT FUCKING CRAZY!
Bella's lullaby is haunting. I like it.
Edit-
I'M VERY VERY CRAPPY NOW! DAMN IT! UGH!
@18:43
NAVIN, YOU GOT HAMTARO-ED!!
MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH =D It was a joke Navin, I didn't fight with Furqaan =D Hope this made your day, cos it certainly made mine :)
@17:18
Alright. I need to clear this up.
I am NOT obsessed with Edward Cullen.
I don't know how you get the impression, but I'm really not that crazy about him. Maybe what I posted, or my reactions were overboard and misleading, but it just.. saddens me to know that people actually think of me this way. To think of me as someone who lives in a fictional world; one time it's Junsu, the other it's Edward.
I didn't mean to really like, worship that vampire in my previous posts. Some of it, etc the Edward Cullen vs Normal Guy, were just lists which I found on forums, and I blogged it cos I thought it was pretty funny.
I DO NOT compare anyone, or expect anyone in the world to be like Edward. Or even Junsu. I don't know why people think that I'm a crazy fan of Edward (or even Junsu), but I don't like it.. Cos I myself don't like people who are like that. People who talk, blog, dream, gossip about nothing but DBSK.. I've met those type of people before, and I pity people like that. So it's saddening to see myself being misunderstood in the same light as them!
This post isn't directed to anyone personally, its just to clear this up. AND I just ate a shitload of stuff (ask Goo), so I'm bloody full and fat now.
On a lighter note, school was tiring. Finally, height and weight over!!! MUAHAHAHAHHA =DD
Sunday, January 4, 2009 @16:08
WHY IS MY PHONE SO BLOODY SILENT TODAY?!
@14:37
I couldn't sleep last night, so I decided to clean up my contacts list. At the same time, I changed all the names for my lovely Reverandoms. Try and guess who you are! =D
Special girl The BOY Crappy Boy GOOish! Rubbish Zammy AnimHo
Guys.. I hope you guys won't feel offended or anything. These are names which just came into my head the moment I thought of it. So yeah.. Just let me know if you want me to change it.
I'm going to buy the Twilight book to read. *evil cackles*
P.S Congrats unnie! You're so darn lucky. Now, if only I was relative with BoA or something =D
Controversy is like a ticking time bomb.
EDIT!
A normal guy would say: “I love you Baby!” Edward Cullen would say: “You are my life now.”
Normal Guy would say: “I think I am falling for you.” Edward Cullen would say: “The Lion fell in Love with the Lamb”
Normal Guy would say: “You hair looks like a haystack; go brush it!” Edward Cullen would say: "Your hair looks like a haystack but I like it.”
A normal guy would pick a random song from a random artist and dedicate it to you. Edward Cullen would sing you a song he wrote for you while playing the piano.
If you died, a normal guy would find another. If you died, Edward would kill himself cause life without you isn’t worth living.
"Well, I wasn't going to live without you.." He rolled his eyes as if that fact were childishly obvious. "..but I wasn't sure how to do it. I knew Emmet and Jasper would never help so I was thinking maybe I would go to Italy and do something to provoke the Volturi."
As you leave the house, a normal guy would say: “Bye, see ya!” As you leave the house Edward Cullen would say: “Come back to me, love.”
He smiled my favorite smile. "Hurry back to me.""Always."
As you come back to the house, a normal guy would be watching TV and wouldn’t even notice. As you come back to the house, Edward Cullen would be welcoming you by playing the piano with a song just for you.
"I heard the music before I was out of the car. Edward hadn't touched his piano since the night Alice left. Now, as I shut the door, I heard the song morph through a bridge and change into my lullaby. Edward was welcoming me home.'
A normal guy would wait for you to make him breakfast. Edward Cullen would make you breakfast everyday.
While you are both out for dinner, a normal guy wouldn’t keep his eyes off the sexy waitress. Edward Cullen wouldn’t even notice the waitress was a female.
A normal guy, while driving, would keep one hand on the wheel and one hand on the radio. Edward Cullen, while driving, would keep one hand on the wheel and the other attached to yours.
While far apart in different places, a normal guy would say: “I miss you.” While far apart in different places, Edward Cullen would say: “It’s like you've taken half myself with you.”
A normal guy wouldn’t care or notice if you had nightmares. Edward Cullen would sing until your nightmares went away.
"Do you want me to sing to you? I'll sing all night if it will keep the bad dreams away."
A normal guy does it with everyone. Edward Cullen only does it with one.
A normal guy buys you flowers and chocolates. Edward Cullen buys you a car.
Credit: Soompi Forums
Damn, isn't he just perfect? <3
Saturday, January 3, 2009 @20:41
Wow. My 3rd post in a day. Anyway, I found this article on Soompi, and I think its good to post it here.
Things guys should know:
7) We travel in groups for one of two reasons 1) because we want to share some form of gossip with each other or get advice on something 2) B/c we don't want to get caught by ourselves with you because we won't know what to say and are afraid we'll make a fool of ourselves
19) Girls hate guys with bad hygiene.
20) Girls love it when a guy pulls them close by the waist
46) Violent statements like "If that guy keeps looking at you, I'm going to tear his head off" are appealing
47) We don't want you to say you love us if you don't mean it
Nights, people.
P.S Loved your reply Furqaan =D But at the same time, those are things that would make some girls go gaga ^^
@19:39
I just realised I can never find anyone like Edward or any Cullen OR any vampires in SG cos ..
- No one in school has hair like Edward
- Boys here are getting BLOODY SHORT
- Boys here won't have the patience to stalk the girl he likes to protect her
- Even if she needs his help, no boys here would save a girl with a hot, expensive car
- BOYS HERE CAN'T PLAY THE PIANO >.<
Most importantly, SINGAPORE IS TOO BLOODY HOT AND SUNNY FOR A VAMPIRE. Damn.
@14:19
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I watched Twilight today with mum. The third time! EDWARDDDDDD <3
I'm gonna start using the lovely planner from my loveliest unnie =D
Time to read up on the Japan war or something. SIGH.
P.S Furqaan, you called just to say hi? O.O
Friday, January 2, 2009 @19:43
First off, lets start off with school. Got scolding before even getting into the car.. Hmm. Not a nice way to start off school, yeah?
Teachers are freaking the shit outta me regarding o levels. What the fuck man, finish Art coursework by Jan/Feb?! These are times when I just.. don't want to wake up, don't wanna go through all these. But since we all have to go through this shit, make it a success. I don't have a choice, but at the same time, I'm not gonna sit there and lose to fate. It might be fated, but I'm sure I can change it. Mandy uh, you always give me inspirations!
Just by reading Reverandoms blog, I feel proud and happy, but also scared at the same time. It was not expected, for us to last this long. For us to be this close. Can we make it last?
I'm god damn sure we can.
Just because we ARE the Hirouka family. The Reverandoms.
Okay enough of this long post.
The 2nd half is for my best unnie <3
Really, thanks for EVERYTHING, Yanjun unnie. I'm super grateful to have known you, because you taught me alot of things. Loads of important things, and I wouldn't have learnt how to let go of things without your advices. You really helped me alot, even more than you know. You're really JJANG!!!
I don't know what else to say, or how to put it. I'm super bad at such things..
I really love your present. It's the most awesome one I've recieved ever since I was born! Haha. I just want you to know.. that even tho we might be living at different ends of the world soon, I'll be there for you whenever you need me. Just like how you're always there for me. If Daniel pisses you off, tell me also ok! Hehe. Your dongsaeng will always be here. I might be terrible at giving advices or talking sense, but I have an awesome listening ear. You can talk to me about anything if you need to. Whether is it a break up, or TOP kissing another woman, or Hyori having TOP's baby, or *gasp* TOP and Yunho is actually gay. Just anything, alright? Or you can just talk crap to me if you feel like it. I'M ALWAYS HERE =D Just ring me up whenever you need a listening ear, someone to eat with, someone to laugh with etc. I know I have my O's, but you can also teach me when we meet up what! You're a very fierce teacher you know! Hehe.
Let's keep this friendship alive okay! There's still the LA LA LA DANCE! I'm looking forward to it. I wanna learn Eat You Up too. So I can eat Edward up! It should be the other way round uh? =D
My mum says she might wanna watch Twilight tomorrow. If she wants to, it'll be my 3rd time! EDWARD, HERE I COMEEEEEE (again)
P.S Is there any guy like Edward in Singapore? Call 1800-199-CULLEN-IN-SG if you see one =D
