ALLY'S

ME2DAY

Sunday, March 29, 2009 @13:31

My body's aching. Real bad. My back, stomach, and calves. The calves feel the worst man.

It's EL oral tomorrow, I'm prepared for it. Shit, I just remembered; I'm prepared for all the aspects of oral EXCEPT the picture. Damn.

Teriza text me last night! It was a nice suprise =D I can't wait to see her on Fri/Sat!

I'm VERY looking forward to the finals of Danceworks on Saturday. It ends at 4, just before my dance class at 5, and the place where the finals is held at is near MG too! Perfect. I don't know where the hell the place is tho, I've never even heard of it. Bellini Grande.. I can't even pronounce it =X

Zhi Ming offered to bring me there after popping class tomorrow tho. I'm really hoping his team would win, they're really good.

I had inspiration for Art last night. I even came up with 2 different compos, and I'm thinking of changing my current compo to the one I composed last night. The one I did last night had a better idea and feel. It looks promising =D

Can't wait for dinner at Changi tonight. The hokkien mee there is so god damn good man.

Saturday, March 28, 2009 @21:29

Alright, I promised to put this picture here for Carel and Goo. Rahim's the one in purple jacket =D He look so boy boy here can haha ^^ His expression... It's as if he's trying to deny he did something bad. =D

@20:49

I MISS TERIZA ANG!!

Pics we took today:

Today was awesome. I went out with Goo and Carel to a flea market.. I absolutely LOVE flea markets now. Let's go every week! As promised, pictures. Notice I'm wearing different clothes? The after, more flowery and feminine one was chosen and recommended by Carel and Goo. I absolutely love these girls! THANKS!

My body's aching. My calves... I don't know if it's the result of today's class or yesterday's class. Either way, I love it. The classes, I mean.

Bye. Imma go bathe.

@00:24

Whoo. It turns out that Karrissa is in dance! Awesomeness.

Teriza dearie left for Malaysia today. Classes just now seemed so quiet without her usual bantering and laughing. SIGH, I MISS YOU GIRL!!

I read Eugene's blog, and I agree that Rahim a very inspiring instructor. He's so young too. Either way, reading his blog brought back dim memories to that conversation at MG last saturday.. Eugene's hard work's gonna pay off man. He's putting in so much effort.

Love, love, crush, love, love. It's getting too ridiculous.

Class just now with Rahim was very energy sapping. We were doing bounces and jumps and dunno what but it got me sweating in less than 10 mins. And I seriously mean sweating, the kind you get when running. Din said it was comparable to running 2.4km, but I disagree. It's more of a 3km run for me. Sia lah, if I everyday go his class uh, surely can lose weight sia! HAHA!

Coming soon, yesterday. It was awesome, seriously. The most horrific movie I've watched in my entire life. Although I was supposed to sit with Danny (thanks to the saboing of the rest), I'm glad it didn't turn out that way. Cos it would have been god damn embarrassing.. I mean, I was screaming every 10 mins and Danny was like, totally silent! I got punched by Angie LOL while we were screaming, so I can imagine myself accidently beating Danny up if we sat together. It was yesterday where I released my first ever BLOODCURLING SCREAM. I'm serious man, I was shocked when I heard that scream, cos it sounded like the ghost was going to kill me instead =D

So, I got to meet some Tanglin Sec boys in MG. They took part in Danceworks too, and Zhi Ming sweetly gave me 2 tix for the finals. I'm thinking of bringing Teriza along to watch, but I'm not sure if she wants..

Meeting Goo and Carel tomorrow for shopping, and then dance class!!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009 @17:47

Oh yah, one more thing.

I made a resolution this morning. I want to get into Temasek Poly next year, by hook or by crook.

Why the sudden determination?

Cos there are loads of cute guys there. I only started feeling determined after chatting with Lijie on Monday. She told me to wait till poly to really start looking. Haha, so yeah, I'm so totally determined to get into TP now.

I'm going to enroll myself in maths tuition next week. Sniff.

@17:25

Thanks guys for all the encouragement for Danceworks!

Right. So now I have a few nicknames.

My god, Furqaan, how the hell did you come up with ALS?! I think Hafis's version of AH LI SONG is cute tho. I'm going to ask him to sing my name in an acappela way tomorrow!

I can't believe what Din said of me man. A few days before, I was leaving the studio with a girl called Din, and we happened to run into Leslie. So I asked Leslie if Danny was attached, and he wasn't. 10 steps later, Din started laughing and pushing me, eventually pushing me to the floor IN FRONT OF DANNY.

Ugh. How embarrassing.

But you know what she told Angie? She told Angie that I was so happy when I heard that Danny was single that I fell down. SIAO AH! Where got people happy until like that one! Somemore, she was the one who liked Danny. And pushed me down, IN FRONT OF DANNY!

Sigh.

I've decided, that I will not play the pushing game already. If asked, I will just admit the truth. Nothing to hide what! Not as if I'm gonna eat him up. Just be open about it lor. IN DIN'S FACE!

I missed popping class yesterday *sniff*

I'm super excited for Science centre tomorrow and STAGE PERFORMANCE CLASS!!

RAHIM! Haha!

P.S Get well soon Razi.. =)

Sunday, March 22, 2009 @17:39

Now I fully understand why Rahim hates Danceworks.

The judges are fucking biased, seriously. Every year without fail, Juying Sec wins something. Because 1 of them are from there or something. I don't know what to say already, I'll just train hard for SYF.

This week has been tiring but VERY fun. I especially LOVE hanging out at MG. Yesterday was a day full of saboing in MG. Sigh.

Aaron wants me to update, so here you are. An update.

Camp is tomorrow. I'm looking forward to Popping class with Danny. I want my jajangmyun. How long has it been already? Sigh. My cheesecake is still at MG. No wonder I felt weird as I was leaving last night. I left my cake there =(

P.S I downloaded all the tracks off BoA's english album already! They're quite good!

@16:31

Let's start off with this thing first :

Tagged by TERIZA!

TEN ARE YOUS
1. Are you single - Yeah
2. Are you happy - With my life? I guess so. Recently, YES
3. Are you bored - Not exactly
4. Are you fair - Yes
5. Are you Italian - Yeah. An Italian vampire
6. Are you intelligent - I'm just lazy most of the time
7. Are you honest - It depends

TEN FACTS
1. Full Name - Allison Tan Min Yee Mekkala Pimpa
2. Nicknames - Ally, Elephant, Ly
3. Birth place - Labour ward
4. Hair color - Light black LOL. Nah, it just looks dark brown in the sunshine ^^
5. Natural hair style - Curls. Can you imagine all the work it takes to straighten my hair everytime?!
6. Eye Color - Dark brown
7. Birthday - 1 December 1993
8.Favorite color - White
10. One place you'd like to visit - France

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love - Occasionally
2. Do you believe in love at first sight - Maybe
3. Do you currently have a crush? - Oh god, YES.
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally? - I guess so, in a way
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart - Yes
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - No

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust – Lust
2. Hard liquor or beer - Hard liquor
3. Cats or dogs - Cats
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - Regular
5. Creamy or Crunchy - Creamy
6. Pencil or Pen – Pen
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - Romantic night in
8. Money or Happiness - Happiness
9. Night or day - Night
10. IM or phone - Phone

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out - Nope. Sneak out for what, my parent's support me in whatever I do.
2. Seen a polar bear - I think so..
3. Done something you regret - Of course.
4. Bungee jumped - Not YET.
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - Yeah
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - Yes! =D
7. Been caught naked - Sigh, yeah.
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - Hell no
9. Cried because you lost a pet - Yeah. Mini and Mino. I practically killed them myself.
10. Wanted to disappear - Sometimes. Facing the music is good too tho.

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - Eyes, baby
2. Light or dark hair - It depends. Gotta suit him luh!
3. Hugs or kisses - Kisses. Hugs, sometimes =D
4. Shorter or taller - Taller, please. Or same height
5. Intelligence or attraction - Attraction
6. Topman or Zara - Topman
7. Funny or serious - Funny
8. Older or Younger - Older! Up to early 20s

TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Of course! I've always wanted to perform.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - Yes, all the time
3. Ever tried walking on your hands - Hell no. I can't
4. Ever been to a rock concert - No. My eardrums are precious
5. Ever been on a cheer leading team – No
6. Ever been on a dance team - I'm in one now
7. Ever been on a sports team - Yeah, Netball
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - I think so
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? - Of course not, stupid.
10. Ever been in a rap video? – No
1. Last phone call you made – TERIZA!
2. Last person you hugged - Uh. Angie?
3. Last person you hung out with - Teriza, Rahim, Danny, Jae and Leslie.
4. Last time you worked - Never, not yet.
5. Last person you talked to - My mum. About some JaeHo stuff.
6. Last person you IM'd - Aaron Tan
7. Last person you texted – I think is Carel
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with - Nandini?
9. Last website visited - Selena's blog

TEN PEOPLE TO DO THIS
1. Goo
2. Carel
3. Aaron
4. Furqaan
5. Razi
6. Letitia
7. Lijie
8. Jiamin
9. Sho
10. Wardah

1. The person who tagged you - Teriza~
2. Your relationship with her/him - Super awesome friend
3.Your 1 impressions of her/him - Wah. She really siao one ah.
4.The most memorable thing that he/she has done for you - Pushing me into the pool
5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you - Chill man, relax =D
6. If 4 becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on - Grow taller and bigger please =D
7. If 5 becomes your enemy, you will - HAHA!! HOW IRONIC! I'll change, I think. Towards him.
8. What is the thing you want to tell him/her now - Yo man. How are you?
9. Your overall impression of 4 - Playful, but lost at times. My ideal brother.
10. How do you think the person around you will feel about you - Funny, talkative!
11. The character you love about yourself is - I look icy, in contrast with my personality.
12.The character you hate about yourself is - I don't know
13. The most ideal person you want to be - Hmm. Someone like Rahim
14. For people who cares and likes you, say something to them - Thanks guys, I love you all.

Friday, March 20, 2009 @19:55

I'M GOING TO PERFORM WELL TOMORROW!

I'M GOING TO DO THE BEST AND BE A PERFORMER!

WISH ME LUCK!

@19:13

I'm shaking.

DanceWorks is TOMORROW. Oh my god. It's so fast. I'm already feeling the nerves. I was looking at the perf last year, and damn, it was good. I'm worried. Worried bout forgetting steps, tripping, falling off stage, wadrobe malfunction, props not working.

I don't know if I'm ready for this.

I've been told that I am. That we all are. And we're pretty good too. But the shaky feeling inside is KILLING me. I need moral support, badly. I still remember how bad the nerves were during MG's audition, where I endured only 3 hours of nerves. Tomorrow, it's going to be 5 hours.

5 hours of nerves. Cold sweats.

And I wasn't even this nervous the night before the audition. I can already imagine how nervous I'm going to be tomorrow.

I cannot let this affect my performance. No way.

Mr Shah : You must not bring your emotions with you on stage. The moment you do that, you'll fail.

Rahim : Your routine, props, and everything have to be at your fingertips. The moment you step on stage, all you think about is to perform. There's no doubts and no questions. On stage, you don't think about anything else but your audience.

I must never forget these two advices tomorrow.

Thursday, March 19, 2009 @17:47

Whew. I am exhausted.

I've been having classes every night, and I really enjoy it. With my passion, classes don't seem too tiring to me at all. But my body is showing signs of exhaustion, and I'm wondering if I should skip class tmr so that I can rest for Saturday's competition..

My favourite class was so far, the performance stage class yesterday. I feel so inspired by Rahim, haha. I can imagine his reaction if I were to tell him that he's my inspiration! And omfg, I fell in front of Danny yesterday. Shit man, I was laughing and talking to this girl about him when suddenly, I tripped over my own feet, knocked myself against the wall, and fell onto the floor. Damn.

Met up with people I didn't see for a long time this week. No one has changed, haha. Still as stubborn as ever, and the other still as carefree as ever =D

I've learnt to ignore instead of tolerating. Juvenile things don't bother me no more as I know they ain't true =D

Tuesday, March 17, 2009 @15:56

I JUST REALLY REALLY LOVE BELLA'S LULLABY. OR IS IT ESME'S LULLABY? EITHER WAY, I LOVE IT. SO TOUCHING, DEEP, AND EXPRESSIVE *tears*

@15:49

Holy cow.

For the first time in history, my Dad got damn pissed with me last night. For breaking a promise I gave him. I explained everything to him via 10 smses and he forgave me. Today, I'm going to attend the hip hop class, but I'll be back by 9 or he can ground me for life.

Popping was.. interesting yesterday. Damn, the popping teacher, Danny, was so god damn cute man. He's like, 22, but when I first saw him, I honestly thought he was a student haha. He looks so young! God, Teriza and me couldn't stop gushing over him. Sigh.

I cannot break my promise today. Grounded for life will kill me.

P.S Dance today in school was god damn tiring. Sigh.

Monday, March 16, 2009 @14:26

AARON TAN, WHY THE HELL DID YOU PRANK CALL ME LAST NIGHT?!

Check your records, you called me around 12 last night. And kept quiet. You probably rolled over your phone and hit the call button or something luh. Haha =D

MANA-SAMA, I KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!

YOU ARE JEREMY!

=D

@14:17

Heh. Today was bad, so far.

I got dragged in the wee hours of the morning to go cycling with my mum. Shit man, from one end of Pasir Ris park to the other end! TWICE!! My mum is damn fast can. Recently my parents have a new obsession; cycling. They bought two bikes, each costing almost a freaking thousand, and they pester me to cycle every week. Sigh. The things I do for love.

I had a nightmare again. It's the 2nd time already; I don't know what's wrong with my dreams these days. I dreamt of sleeping on a bed which was full of pink bees and dead thai soldiers in my hall.

I signed up for a slur classes, which will take place every night starting from today. It's at Clarke Quay, and my training will include dance and singing. I'm very excited, but how am I going to cope? 3 hours, almost every night. From 7 pm to 10 pm, which means I will have to go down to Clarke Quay after school. Again, the things I do for love.

Today is going to be dance and vocal training for locking, beatboxing, and pop vocals <3

Saturday, March 14, 2009 @21:53

From: You know who.. <3

Dear Nandini, darling,

You bring light to the darkness. You're my angel to the world. You're a flower in the midst of a desert and you're a saviour of my life, and you gave me strength to move on with life.

I once thought of ending my life. It was full of misery and pain. So hopeless. So empty. I thought I'd never find love. But you. You gave me hope. A hope no one had ever given me. It's different from what my parents, friends and teachers had given me.

You may not be the prettiest but you melt my heart and I can't keep my eyes off you. I just want you to know that you're special. I don't know why I'm writing this but I feel that I need you. I want you. I LOVE you.

Take my hand and never let go. I beg you. Please leave a space for me in your heart. I love you. I really do.

Do write me back and leave me on my table. I'm waiting, always.

Yours Truly,

Marcus <3

P.S AW isn't that sweet? I wished I had a love letter too =D

@21:40

Walao. Today was a long day.

I reached the venue at 12.30, and then we went up for briefing. I was assigned to be the LAST one to sing, and we all went in 1 by 1. The wait for my turn took like, 3 hours man. It was a fucking long 3 hours, and I thought I couldn't make it. I thought I would have collapsed from stress or nerves before I even got to sing.

I was that nervous.

I was so so so nervous, worried, and scared. No words can describe this feeling. I couldn't even decide on the song; in the end, I changed it at the last minute. I was on the verge of losing it today. On the verge of caving in. Luckily I had Angie and the rest there, otherwise.. I don't know why I was so scared today. It's not my first time, and I should be comfortable with it. But I was really losing it. Why?

Results.

I didn't get to finish the song. Jay and Rahim were the judges; Rahim was really cool and friendly and everything, but Jay was like Simon. Although I knew Jay for a long time, I was REALLY intimidated in the room. The song I sang demanded high energy and confidence.. I had no problem smiling and winking and mantaining eye contact with Rahim, but it was totally different with Jay. Unlike Rahim, Jay wasn't like.. smiling, or anything. It. Was. Scary. I couldn't really project the same correct kind of feeling to Jay.. He was intimidating.

Rahim seemed pleased; he praised my performing ability. He said I was a performer! That was exactly what I wanted to project out. The ability to perform. But I wasn't confident enough for my song. I should have moved more freely. I shouldn't even be feeling restricted in the first place. Well.. Everyone has a first time.

Results are not out yet. I don't think I did well enough, tho.

@09:21

MARCUS 's LOVE LETTER WILL BE POSTED SOON! WATCH THIS SPACE FOR IT!

=D

@09:13

I am in deep shit.

The audition is in 3 freaking hours away and I'm not prepared. Not even decided on the song yet. I was so worried that I dreamt of flunking the audition last night. So nervous that I couldn't stop shaking even when I woke up.. So I called a few friends and expectedly, they were all asleep. Luckily Teriza picked up, or I would have started hyperventilating.

OMG!

Yesterday was embarrasment day. Oh man. How did this happened? UGH!! My gooooood. I'm going to miss all my friends. Bye bye people. Expect a newer me when I return!!

=D

Thursday, March 12, 2009 @19:22

I loved today. Today was greaaaat =DD

Shit, I don't think I can do A thousand miles for my audition anymore. No feel. Oh no, the audition is in 2 FREAKING DAYS, how! I'm trying out a few now. Either Everlasting or This Song. Or.. Maybe I'll stick to A thousand Miles. UGH!!! I'm still down with flu. I'm so going to flunk my audition!

Later, I'm going to be a good student and do my maths. Mr Mohd told us not to date this year.. I'm stuck. Sigh. What to do?? One step at a time.

People who don't reply my smses make me think like they hate me or something. Which is why they don't bother to reply. Can't be bothered to reply. Cause they're angry with me. Or hate me.

Jeez. Don't like me, ignore me, fine. I'll keep myself away from people who don't like me. I crazy uh, go near them for them for them to start being sacarstic meh? Heh.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009 @19:10

Firstly, I would like to welcome someone.

AARON TAN, WELCOME TO THE BLOGGING WORLD!

Aaron Tan has finally created a blog, start linking him now! Better still, go and spam his tagboard =D

http://www.cyberfusi0n.blogspot.com/

I'm going to put lots of hearts next to Aaron's link as he requested. But I'm not too sure if he noticed that all the links that has a heart to it are actually only girls... Well, maybe he's trying to tell me that he's a... you know... *whispergaywhisper* in a subtle way... *shrugs*

Today was okay. I ditched school to study for the retest, then I went to the old Changi Hospital with Nandini. It was disappointing; there were no ghosts, no corpses, and no dead stuff. But there was a shitload of mosquitos... Damn.

I'm dreading Friday, really. 3 hours of SYF, I can feel the pain already. My poor knees... *shakes head*

And yes yes yes! I finally found my song to sing for the audition! A Thousand Miles =D

P.S I miss you alot, Jaejoong.. & Junsu ^^

Sunday, March 8, 2009 @15:11

BoA's new MV is amazing. I mean, look at the dance! It all boils down to one word. Passion.

I feel wretched. I'm doing something I shouldn't be doing. Or I'm doing something I'm not ready for. Not now. Not when I thought I was.

Help.

Friday, March 6, 2009 @20:59

Today was super tiring. Really really tired.

Going off to sleep now.

Thursday, March 5, 2009 @22:17

I went to bed, smiling, last night.

This morning, I told myself that nothing could spoil my perfect mood today. But I was proven wrong, bit by bit. Should I say that I'd seen this coming? I'm pathetic.

But when I was at my lowest point of my day just now, a dear friend saved my day. She offered to keep me company for that rest of the day, and I can't express how grateful I was.

Disappointed, but what can I say? Who can I blame? *snort*

Alright. So I fucked up and got the day wrong for Valkyrie. And people got pissed with me. I mean like, wtf man, if you're hyped up enough for the movie to the point where you would get angry over this mistake I made, why the fuck didn't you check the timing yourself? I was being helpful in the first place. So I made a mistake, big deal. If the movie was so important to you, go should go check yourself luh! And worse still, what right does anyone have to be angry when that person didn't even plan to watch Valkyrie in the first place?

Want it so much, but refuse to move a budge for it. Ridiculous.

Today, I was talking to Carel about the issue of sounding. Why do people sound others? What right do they have to do that? Are they the most perfect person in the world to point out the flaws of others? The answer I would most probably get is, sounding the person for his own good. For him to change for the better.

My ass.

How do one expect the other party to listen and change when one is constantly screaming and shouting at the other party? The whole point is not to change the other party isn't it? The whole purpose of sounding is just to point out all the things you don't like about the other person, criticize him for it, and argue back whatever defences the other party gives. Argue to the point of winning. AT THE OTHER PARTY'S EXPENSE. One would argue like a babarian just to win. Argue about non existant issues, issues that are NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS.

Thus, in that case, one does not sound for the benefit of that person. It's just an excuse to BULLY.

I'm giving up. No more hurt.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009 @20:47

I'm so happy!

Because, thanks to Firdaus, the password for the admistrator account has been revived! THANK YOU SO MUCH FIRDAUS! I owe you English help for the rest of this year =D

Today, dance was painful. I bet bruises would start showing up by tomorrow morning. And I saw Furqaan and Sho in the hall during dance. In fact, I'd bet half the time they were laughing at me or something. RIGHT FURQAAN? Hmm.

Tomorrow, I'm going to watch Suspect X with Carel and Goo. I don't know if Berwin is joining us, but I'm pretty sure he is. Or maybe not. I'm hoping we can catch Valkyrie tomorrow too.

My studies have deproved. I know what's the reason for it. I'll start taking things more seriously from now.

Monday, March 2, 2009 @20:19

Jealous not, Goo?