Got back from dinner. It was really good, but towards the end, I began to get VERY irritated. And when I get irritated, I get into a bad mood, which affects the people around me.


So how did I get irritated in the first place?


I get irritated when I feel dirty. When I feel greasy, stinky, sweaty, and oily. When I feel that my hair is curling again. When I feel like crap. Which means that during bbqs I would probably get irritated and moody too.



Sigh.


I really am not looking forward to the concert. Actually, its not the concert I'm not looking forward to. Its the people I'm gonna meet there. I don't want to see Jun and gang there. Which is practically impossible cos I'm supposed to be sitting beside her. And the rest, I'm probably gonna see them outside the gate or something. And when they're all happily chatting, I'm all alone laming in one corner by myself. Sigh. I.. don't even want to count on Yanjun 'saving' me cos I think she's gonna be joining Jun and gang. And when I'm alone, I think alot of things. I think that I'm an outcast, unwanted, hated, etc. And it's gonna spoil the whole mood. SIGH, I know I think too much. But well, this is me. This is why I'm sorta dreading the concert. I'm dreading the whole outcasty feeling I'm gonna feel there. Again, I think too much. Can you imagine, being all 'alone' in a freaking awesome concert? Now the only thing I can think of to console my PATHETIC self, is to hope that I'm gonna meet another loner singapore fan there and sit together with her and hit off right at the start. God has a way. That's the only positive thing I can think about now. Sigh.


I'm looking forward to tomorrow's chalet. Looking forward to feeling welcomed and looking forward to sleeping with them. Ahem.



Goodnight people. I'm going to sleep and wake up .



Think positive, Allison. God has a way, don't worry. And I can always make friends at the gate before the concert itself! Have faith in yourself <3