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CNY is such a bore. For me at least. Maybe it's just me. Or maybe it's just the recession this year. Either way, I noticed a lack of things this year during CNY. I don't even feel the joy or the exitement. I don't feel anything different. I dreamt I was pregnant, and I was about to give birth. Oh god.. I don't remember much of it but I remember being afraid. Afraid of the pain of giving birth. And the small spasm of pain in between. Really scary. I don't know if it's the book that's influencing me, but I feel more and more like Bella. Minus Edward of course. What I mean is the way I speak.. The way I handle things nowadays, it changed. And I've been a klutz recently too. I feel like I'm declining inwards.. I think I've changed recently. Please do not give me crap such as saying that I'm trying to be like Bella cos I want an Edward to climb through my window. Since when did I start typing like this? Did anyone even noticed? *snorts* I guess I don't care now. I've numbed myself to all. |