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The last thing I did last night before succumbing to sleep was to think how pretty awesome it was to finally, totally relax in the darkness without any worry of school the next day. The sweet fruit of my efforts from the entire 5 days of studying. I realised alot this week. How would you feel when you realise that a person does not treat you or trust you the much you think your friend does? When you realise that all this while, you are not what you think you are to someone, it just makes you question if you are not what you think you are. Makes you question if you are not as slim as you think you are; not as pretty as you think you are; or even not as good as you think you are. When you start to have doubts in yourself, what happens next? You shun. Shun from others, in hope that you do not do anything to aggravate the pathetic state you are in. The state you were in all this while without even knowing; it's like having rice stuck on your face and you walk around, totally not aware of it. Scary. |