Today was 'Collect Your Results And Cry Day'.

Results were bad. Okay, not all of them were bad but some are bad enough to stun me. I really wasn't expecting to get that low for History. My major weakness in History was in the source based questions, and damn, I did really bad for that. I don't know if its the content of my answer or the structure of my answer, but either way, I only got 1 mark for most of the SBQ.

The worst hit today definitely came from History. Like many others, I cried after recieving the papers. I used to get A1s for History, what happened to me? I know that its all due to my playfulness. I should have traded in those fun hours for reading up instead, especially when it so content based like History! But honestly, the pain and tears didn't really come from the crappy marks I got. It came from the fact that I had disappointed Mr. Mohd.

He gave me the best few weeks of my life and brought me to Japan, and this is how I repay him? Before we recieved our papers, I was telling Carel that out of all the teachers, Mr Mohd is one teacher I would never ever want to let down. I would study History even if I throw away all my other books in fustration. It's just.. I don't want to disappoint Mr Mohd. I don't want to sit down and know that my results, my actions, have let him down. He had tried for us, but have I? I don't know why I feel this only towards him. Maybe its all his hard work during lessons. Or the Japan trip. But either way, I'm not going to let him down anymore. I have to start bucking up.

Unnie was right. She was damn spot on; Mid Years are the trigger factors for us to CHIONG.

P.S I know they don't notice it, but I really appreciate you guys trying to cheer me up during Biology. THANKS AH, SHO AND AARON! I'll push Aaron off the ledge and jump down myself if my Os are as crappy as this.