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As you can see, I've edited most of my posts. Goo and Navin really gave me a wake up call last night. I really really glad they called, or I would have went to his house today. Not only do I feel disgusted now, I feel fucking stupid. They're right, he's a man and although he can give me what I want, he'll ask for more than I can give. The talk last night had such an impact that I had a weird dream about it. I dreamt that I had a boyfriend who was two timing me with Carel, and one day when we were out, he openly went out with Carel, in front of me! And so I ran away, crying. And everyone tried to contact me, and by the end of the day, I had 81 missed calls. And even by then, my dreamt up boyfriend still DARED TO ASK ME TO GO WATCH A MOVIE. And I was like, FUCK YOUUUUUU. You think you can do this with Carel and still want to go out with me? FUCK YOU!! Haha, I don't know why Carel was in the dream :/ Anyway, this dream must have been my subconcious self warning me about Zac when my real self is still struggling see through his murky antics. So this shows that deep deep down, I've always known that Zac wasn't good for me. I just got blinded by the attraction. THANK YOU GOO & NAVIN! I'm so sorry I disappointed you earlier. And thank you for calling despite the let down. I LOVE YOU GUYS <33333 |